My Melody

My melody is warm.
My melody is bright.
A melody so full of light.

And every day it rings.
Reminding me of better things.
Repairing the wounds on my wings.

I play it loudly.
So I cannot hear them speak to me.
And maybe then, I can be free.

We can rise above.
This world that we are tired of.
It is possible to transcend, my love.

Just look to the sky.
There is no need to ask why.
Because my melody will let us fly.

You have no idea.

Wasting time pounding nails into a brick wall.
With my bare hands.
They won't penetrate, and if they do...
The bricks just shatter.

I refuse to fight a war against you.
I'm at war with myself.
My resources have been drained dry.
I have no ammunition.

So, I'm not a porcelain angel painted in gold.
What does it mean to you?
Did you expect me to be something from a fairytale?
To answer all your prayers?

Because I'm nothing more than a little girl.
You hold me up too high.
And in my mind I am not who you think.
In that sense I can't be me.

I am not a medicine that you can swallow.
I refuse to be your panacea.
Because I already have more than I could ever want.
But you don't listen to me.

Bully

I was walking along, innocently.
Then, you put out your foot.
I tried to catch myself.
To stop the momentum.
But I fell.
Hard.

And I looked ahead, forward to the future.
But, you tugged me back once again.
Clutching my hair in your fist.
Pulling my head backwards.
Toward you.
Painfully.

I tried to stand my ground, proud and tall.
Though, crumpled papers hit my head.
Your sly grin directed at me.
Throwing whatever you can.
Constantly striking.
Annoyingly.

I know I should have moved farther away.
But, I could not resist it at all.
You never whispered a word.
Yet I knew what you felt.
In the back of my mind.
Silently.

Afar

I'll never admit it.
I'll never say.
Give me a million dollars,
I'll throw it away.

Though your eyes,
Melt me inside.
They try to compel,
But I'll never tell.

How much effort is "hello"?
Words you'll never know.
I cannot tell you.
It's something I won't do.

So don't expect a greeting.
Don't expect a smile.
Because I'll hold it in forever.
Longing to express it all the while.

The Song

You are a song.
The loveliest song on earth.
Your notes can move the hearts,
Of all the boys and girls.

If I had my way,
I'd listen to you each day.
An endless musical reprise.
Sweet tears welling in my eyes.

Your sound stops the world,
And the music box gears twirl.
Bringing everyone to dance,
a graceful ballroom romance.

When the sound ends,
they all fall down.
Where is the happiness;
The love we've found?

You cannot last forever, my song.
No matter how much I wish you'd stay along.

Searching

When will you know you have found what you have been searching for? Often times we just keep looking aimlessly for something, never knowing where it might be or what it looks like. It doesn't matter, we keep searching, but we don't even know what we seek.

Is it happiness, love, money, or fame? Maybe it's all of them, or none of them. We search for these things throughout our lifetimes, not knowing how to find them. But, have we ever thought that they could already be in our lives? We are looking for something that we already possess.

I wandered aimlessly in hopes that I would find happiness. However, I am already endowed with happiness- so much of it that I could not even see it. It surrounded me like the air I breathe. I never even noticed.

We might have everything we need, but we don't realize it. Humans have a tendency to want more and more. It takes effort to look beyond the surface and see what is really there.

"...I discovered I had within me all along all that I was looking for: love- more than enough for others, and plenty for myself. Truly, all that I sought was also seeking me." -Naomi Horii

View

Open your eyes.
Can you see what I see?
I bet you cannot.
It's not a surprise to me.

Well, look here.
Now can you view?
I really hope so.
I wish that I knew.

I don't mind.
Think what you will.
But, if you look here.
My wish is fulfilled.