Friday, October 30, 2009

Fear & Reassurance

Sometimes, trusting is difficult.
It's like taking someone's hand and walking into the dark. You don't know what will happen and you can't see a thing. The only thing that's guiding you is trust. You trust that the hand in yours will guide you and keep you away from harm.

Why shouldn't I be afraid to trust?
Of course trust has benefits and faults. Not everyone you confide in will keep your secrets. There will be times when the other person lets go of your hand and leaves you there in the dark. I have reasons to be afraid.

When we trust, we just have to hold on and hope.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Use your voice

I feel very lucky. Lucky to be alive and lucky to have what I have.

I was watching this interview, and they told a little boy in Liberia:
"A lot of people, if they don't eat for one day, they'll be crying."

He said, "but I was brave. When people come to kill you, how would you feel? You don't want to eat."

It's true, we take everything for granted. I can remember the times when people told me to feel lucky that I have food, a home, clothes ect. I would not really care. I was a kid, what did it matter to me? If things don't directly affect us, we tend to ignore them.

If you ignore something, it doesn't make it go away.
It's still there, you just aren't paying attention to it.
You can't wish away problems; you can solve them.

Don't stand by, ignoring will only make things worse. If someone is bothering you, give them a reason to shut up. It doesn't matter if everyone around you is against what you stand for, because somewhere in the world, there's someone who thinks the same way as you. Stand up. Use your voice, because if you don't, no one else will.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Curiosity

Curiosity is a silly thing.

Have you ever wondered what things would be like if you did something differently?
Imagine if you said hello to that girl or boy, or complimented that stranger. You could have made a different expression, said a different phrase, or faced a different direction and time would have been totally altered. It's pretty amazing.

Imagine if you made a good first impression on someone. The guilt every time you saw that person would be nonexistent. Turning back time sounds kind of nice.

For the time being, it's impossible to undo moments spent and relive them. Maybe it's better off that way, because life would be too easy if we could fix every mistake we made. The past is (sometimes unfortunately) the past. :)

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Reflect

It's kind of stupid how I have about 4 unfinished homework assignments that I didn't even begin yet. It's 7:59 pm. No wonder I'm always tired and stressed.

Tomorrow is Friday, which will be 22 days before my birthday. It's a scary reality check, growing a year older. There are a lot of moments I wish I could take back. Why do I always leave bad first impressions? It is totally unfair.

A lot has changed for me this year, despite the fact that school has only just begun. I guess it's all part of maturing. I really hate that word sometimes. People always tell me I'm mature. Does maturity mean that you have to be serious? Smart? I don't know. I'm a total contradiction, because people call me mature and naive. How does that make sense? Oh well. :)