Examinations

I HATE EXAMS. Seriously...I think I am going to pass out. Now, my sister's school is closed all week because of a "swine flu outbreak". My sister is sick and it's annoying me, I really don't want to get sick, but I'm starting to feel it. My doctor put me on all sorts of medications and I don't even know what I am doing. Anyways, I better study...I didn't even start.

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Is it possible to become me again? I think I've created a monster. I still havent decided on whether this monster is something I love or hate. Looking at myself in the mirror reveals a stranger, but somehow that stranger gives me comfort.

I know that the person I used to be is not what I want anymore, but that person was happy. She did whatever she wanted and didn't care what people thought. She was loud, she was silly, she was somebody. Me, I am nobody, but is it better?

I do not believe anything stays the same in this life. We as people are always growing, changing to survive in this world. As we change, the world changes, it's like an unbeatable game. I know I am young, younger than most in my class, but I see something that many others seem to not notice. I see the beauty in our diverse world. I see the need for holding on each time I feel hopeless. A life wasted is a life undeserved.

Sickness

Sickness is really annoying. I wonder why I am plagued with this terrible feeling. I know everyone gets sick, but why do I get sick SO much? It's awful. My sister is sick too, but she gets sick way less than me.
It's really hard to keep my average above 90 when I am absent so much, but I manage to do it. Sometimes people tell me I overwork myself, but I don't care. I have a goal I want to reach and I'm willing to accept the challenges. In the meantime, I guess I'll get another glass of orange juice.

15 minutes of fame.

Go ahead, conform.
Do what people expect you to do, because that's what you're SUPPOSED to do.

Go ahead, combine.
All together we are strong, together we lose individuality.

Go ahead, believe.
It's easier to believe something you're told than to seek the truth.

We are humans. We make mistakes. Our hearts have different longings, our appearances and minds allow us to be unique. We are united in diversity, not similarity. When will people open their eyes? I can only wonder.

Nonexistent Girl

It's nothing special....

Am I invisible?
Am I see through?
It wouldn't really matter to you.

I've cried insignificant tears.
I've faced imaginary fears.
You turn your cheek.

Time cherished.
Time wasted.
You smiled as you erased it.

I want to take back every moment I spent...
To you, I am nonexistent.

The Future

This is something I wrote....
:)

Thinking about the future...
What does it hold?
What will I do from now until I am old?

Will I make good choices?
Will I do good things?
I really want to know what the future brings.

Will I fall in love?
Will he break my heart?
Will my world fall apart?

I think I need to realize...
If I want to know my future,
I must make it come true.

You make your own future.
The future does not make you.

Blog.

I'm not writing this expecting anyone to read it. If you read this and like it, that's wonderful. I'm Elisa. No one ever seems to get my name right, so I usually don't bother correcting them anymore. Sometimes it's hard for me to relate to other people, but I really like people a lot...especially kids. I understand that you, my reader, probably know me a little bit. If so, I'd like to tell you that I'm really quite different than I seem.

Well, I don't want to write an autobiography. I'm not like, some famous person...no one really cares. In this blog thing, I might share lyrics I wrote, videos and songs I like or maybe even some photos. Who knows. It's just to pass time.